What DOES Happen When You Have A Panic Attack In The Middle Of a Lake?
Well, this has definitely been a rough week or so for me! A Fibro flare up had already commenced and I was really looking forward to some relaxing time with the family at the cottage. Nothing beats the sunshine and listening to the sound of the waves! And no that is not the inner mermaid in me speaking, I actually have a fear of water but I love to look and listen.
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Along with my Fibro , I have also suffered from severe anxiety for the last couple of years but pretty much had that in check. Anyhoo, on to the story … I have never been jet skiing in my life and after watching my husband go on it for the second time I thought it would be as good as a time as any to face my fear and do something new.
Well, this is where the Law of Attraction comes in to play. Earlier my sister in law and I had been discussing whether or not we were going to give it a go and I expressed that I did, in fact, want to try it but I was afraid I was going to fall off and then have a panic attack in the water.
Guess what happened? I fell off and had a panic attack in the water!
It was very likely one of the scariest things that has happened to me. I know you might be thinking, as long as I was wearing a life jacket I was fine. But if you have ever suffered from a fear coupled with anxiety then you know it is not as simple as that.
I, of course, went under when I hit the water and as soon as I surfaced, the panic set in. I thought I was going to drown. Luckily my husband was able to talk me through it as I swam for my life back to the jet ski. The next hurdle was trying to get back on to the jet ski.
Because I have Fibromyalgia, I really lack upper body strength and I was really worried, scratch that terrified that I was not going to be able to get back on the jet ski. I looked at how far away the shore was and again panicked ( well it never really stopped).
Just imagine for a minute what it would be like to have a panic attack in the middle of the Lake!
( ok so, I wasn’t technically in the middle but I might have well been because that is how it felt to me at the time) I tried to take a minute to level out my breathing while I hung on to the back of the jet ski and mustered up the strength to hoist myself back on. After a few failed attempts and near tears at this point, I found some footing and was able to use my legs to help me get back on. A little battered and bruised, I hung on to my husband for dear life as we made our way back to shore.
Why am I I telling you all of this? Well, for a few reasons.
The Law of Attraction is very powerful! Thoughts become things and what you think is what you draw into your life. I was so focused on my fear that it manifested itself into EXACTLY what I didn’t want to happen!
It can be easy to slip back into old patterns and habits, you just have to find that place inside, that voice, that says I CAN DO THIS AND I DESERVE THIS.
Because I have been taking courses and doing meditations geared around The Law of Attraction & Anxiety, I was able to face my fear and try something new.
[ Read more about how the Law of Attraction can work for you and How I was able to rid myself of the severe anxiety that plagued my life https://jenniferdawn.ca/how-to-get-the-law-of-attraction-to-work-for-you/ ]
I choose not to let my fear control me or have the power, instead, I use it as a motivator to make the changes necessary to be able to live the life that I desire and deserve! And to Motivate and Inspire others to do the same.
I am so proud of you for facing that fear!! Even though the outcome was your worst nightmare, the true outcome to me was that you had such great support during and after… And you didn’t drown. You didn’t die.
But you can absolutely cross that off the list…. I hope there’s a next time, because I know you will readjust your sails, even if it means floating on a floatie near the shore, or being towed safely by the jet ski. You gave me so much to think about Jen. Thanks for having the courage!! 🙂
Thank you! The average person does not understand just how terrifying an anxiety attack can be! This past year has been one of self-discovery and self-improvement and I know that before long it will all be a thing of the past!
All I see is the 2 of you helping each other through a scary time. That was NO surprise to me and neither was the fact that that you, Jen, handleld your fears with assurance from your hubby. That is the true , loving way a couple should support each other and again, No surprise to me at all. “3